Hi and welcome to owa1985′s blog. Since you found it, have some SNSD:
Obvious Credits: acc.sosi.kr
It occurred to me that not everyone who visits my blog knows their names. So, from left to right:
Tae Yeon, Tiffany, Soo Young, Jessica, Yuri, Yoona, Sunny, Hyo Yeon, Seo Hyun (Pronounced “Seo Heon”)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impostor_syndrome
Click the link above for some background.
Anyway, I found myself hitting these rough patches where I feel completely undeserving of the praise and success I find myself getting. One would think that getting a taste of acclaim would leave me hungry for more, no?
The context isn’t very important, but a friend raised a very good point about responsibility and ownership today:
You are responsible for everything that happens to you, be it good or bad.
I find it funny that most of us, me included, would choose to focus on the bad things and try to disown the good. Especially the VERY good things.
Just remember this, even if you did win the lottery, at the very least you bought the ticket.
Another friend brought up the fact that chance does play a role in the things that we do. Sometimes what we do brings a disproportionate impact based on the effort put in. Still, we shouldn’t discount what we did to bring about the results.If the proverbial bonus multiplier is still high, capitalise on it.
Anyway, excuse me while I go bask in the light of my glory for a while. ;-)
It irks me to this day that I was very unceremoniously dumped on my backside.
The fun thing about the whole business though, was that a number of stuff happened to me after:
1. Wake up (figuratively) and deciding to participate in whatever I decided to do.
2. Discover that I now have the technical and artistic know-how to tell people “I do websites”
3. Discover network marketing in the form of a company that provides business advice and a formalised support structure as an add on to a well known direct selling company
4. Discover PHP programming (hah!) and MongoDB
I guess over the past few months, I lost sight of my original goal of being able to travel and not stay in the same place for long. So, my getting fired from the last company (not my own) I ever intended to work in is a super good thing, in retrospect.
But why can’t I prevent the feeling of despair and ennui that crop up when everything seems to be going right according to plan?
It’s been a strange ride.
It’s also too bad that I didn’t get to stay.
I love the awesome grand plan to make the world a better place. I will keep that close to heart.
Thanks for all the lessons and all the friends I have made.
It’s been two days now and I still find it hard to belief I work for my new company. Smiles everywhere, tough, idealistic, but fun boss, quirky co-workers, and crazy drunken parties.
It’s a place where the thought of under-performing is frightful not because of the fear of reprimand. But rather it’s the fear of actually causing the happy mood to break due to tangled deadlines and stuff.
More about the new place later. For now this will do.
Click the link above to see the whole article.
Does this mean that piracy isn’t actually piracy, but is something coined by publishers?
More importantly: Do you even need publishers with the advent of the Internet and $1 songs on iTunes?
I’d say no, but then again, there’s this cracked.com article:
An amusing read, for sure. And probably riddled with inaccuracies and stuff, but the man has a point.
Still, the future is upon us and the latest generation demands free content, dammit!
New job.
Broke up for real.
Moving out soon.
New friends.
Many new friends.
New things to do in the new job.
Understanding why a long time thorn in the side is so annoying.
Mastering manifesting.
Life is looking up (mostly, heh). And yet I am not as happy as I should be. It’s like I am torn between the old world and the new and I am trying to bring as many things and people along with me. You know, like a born-again-whatever.
I can see why people preach and why people get annoyed by them. The self-righteousness I find myself feeling is beginning to sicken even myself.
I should probably go to sleep.
